If there is one thing in life I've always had difficulty doing, it's staying true to myself. I've always worried about what people think and if I've offended someone. And when it comes to my art, my blog, my work...Same. Next thing you know you are mid-life and waiting on the ball to drop. Y'all I'm so over it and my give a damn busted. Now is 'ME' time.
And on this note: I did something a bit rash, but for my own well-being and coping of mid-life, I had to. I stopped my folklore podcast and then I packed away each and every divinatory thing in my house like my collection of tarot cards, books, dowsing rods, crystals. Why? Two reasons:
1. Mental Well-Being - I've been through four surgeries in the past six years, three of them in the past 18 months. To say I've suffered from post-surgical fatigue and depression in an understatement. These surgeries changed me as a person. I have a long road ahead of me, but I know these things happen for the betterment of our souls. Sadly, it has caused me to put a pause on my spiritual life; healing, tarot reading, dowsing, and my podcast. My energy needs to be tip-top for these things. I truly believe we can cause harm to our own energy and others if we are not operating at top level. It's causing me pain to see all of these things lying around, so away they went.
2. Overthinking it all - Not feeling so great has caused me to sit around and overthink everything...Never a good thing. Is this truth? Is that fake? Is this half truth? Honestly...I've had a lot of unexplainable things happen in my life that have led me to believe in the paranormal, but starting my podcast and working with energy have taught me half of what is out there is absolute steaming poo, and I just don't know where I stand on it all at the moment.
What I do know for certain is this:
Once paranormal becomes explainable it's normal. Science. On earth there will always be paranormal, because we will never be able to explain it all.
I think we are living in a simulation. Not like the Matrix...The matrix is just our most current way to explain something and link it to our human understanding as the heavens were millenia ago. We are spiritual beings having a human experience and everything is energy. Yeah...energy takes form, and there is good and bad energy, and I think this explains everything under the earth's sun, and every other type of sun that might exist. That being said, our own energy and how we use it is everything and when we are not tip-top, it's best to take a break and let yourself breathe.
So I'm gonna hang out in nature, start making jewelry again, play video games, spend time with those that matter, and for once be true to myself and try find joy in every little corner. No heavy expectations or pressure on myself. Heck, I even watched Kindergarten Cop last night and had a few good laughs. You might be hearing all about Finding Joy in the near future.
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